So I entered into that lovely blog field of - a runner that can't run and has to cry about it.
I debated to even type anything, but as this is a journal for me, I'll write down my feelings just to look back to down the road (to make fun myself probably).
If you want to read someone that approached this more reasonably, read here.
If you were to have talked to me yesterday, I was mentally freaking out. Unless there is something super seriously wrong, I'm sure I can finish the Chicago Marathon as an okay time. But for me, I'm not about okay for the race. I'm not a frequent racer. I want to own the race and know that was the best I could do. An injury even setting me back a few minutes off my goal times really ticks me off.
I'm trying to mentally be okay with any outcome. But I won't be obviously. I don't want an experience of finishing, I want an experience of being proud of it relative to what I know I should be able to do. Should this marathon not work out right, who knows. Next year looks to be less friendly for running 60-70mph after the spring. I may settle back to just running to run, or try to work on getting a sub 1:25 half by the end of 2014. And any injuries wouldn't hurt as bad mentally then.
Woah now Declan, you've rested two days total, this isn't the end of the world!
True true. One day at a time. I'll come back to reality.
At least today I haven't had tingling sensations in my foot... yet. I'm hoping that after 3-4 days, I can have a normal day and try to get some easy runs back in. The idea of losing countless hours of sleep and training to this messes with my mind. Granted 7-10 days off is only like 2% loss of ability, that is still two too many. But I won't be stupid and try to come back too fast. I'll do my best Derrick Rose rehab mentality, minus on demand trainers and doctors. I don't like waiting four days just to get a PT referral that will probably take another 3-5 days.
But to look at the positives:
I'm sleeping 7-9 hours a night, rather than 5-6.
And less laundry I guess.
I'm trying to slow down my eating in case this turns long term and start thinking about places to cross train. Hopefully I'm being a drama queen and I'll be back running a lot sooner than I think.
I'll happily call myself a cry baby.
On the non running side, I'm hoping tonight is less cloudy than last night so I can try to go out and catch the Perseid Meteor Shower. (see here)
Hope everyone enjoyed their weekend!!
